I wonder where you are.
I wonder how you are or if you are,
do you think of me?
Did you know I loved you?
Did you know I needed to know that you loved me?

You never could, and I
Must be strong enough
To move past you
The mother I needed.

I fight back the tears
I don’t want anyone to see me cry.
I can’t believe you’re gone
With so many things unhealed.

The love you wouldn’t give.
Yet I loved you, I tried.

So I tell you now
As I wonder about you,
That I experience joy and love
I celebrate the things I have learned
I love and laugh.

I think and grieve
The mother you could have been.