I am not comfortable in today’s church.
I was raised in a small warm family church..
I raised my kids in a small church where yes everybody was
neighbors, or friends, mostly ranch families, and yes
the talk was as often about open range policies as it was about
scripture.
I came to understand
the message of grace by the behavior of people
acting in grace and in fellowship..exhibiting the love of Christ in their lives
and in their conversation.

We have a new pastor at our church,
and he is not a pastor I choose to sit under and be taught by..
I am pissed off and disappointed.
I am one of those people that actually go to church for the teaching as well
as the fellowship..
which in this church is well pretty rare,
John and I have been attending this church for
18 months, and we were delighted with the teaching.. and
tolerated the clickiness of the congregation..
but.. if you have neither
teaching or fellowship..
why bother?

a true presentation of the original language, history
accurately given, then taught upon,
preferably
verse by verse..
I have been a bible student for about 25 yrs.
My faith is a part of who and what I am, I certainly am
not shy about sharing the Gospel of Christ, but only if
and when, the circumstances are such that I can speak knowing that this isn’t
just a bullshit question.
I am appalled at the Christians who feel that their job is to shove their brand of
faith~whatever down my throat.
It pisses me off.
I wasn’t asked to go door to door,nor did I volunteer to do so..
or stand in downtown wherever especially This small town in Florida
and proclaim the gospel,
to annoy and harden those who might have received the good news in a different set of circumstances.
When I accepted the salvation message it was because I recognized
that I needed God in my life.
So why do these idiots think that I am going to tolerate them cramming this
watered down ,misrepresented babble in my life, in my church..
GRRRRRRRRR
I am looking for a new church and
that makes me sad.

I recieved this froma friend and thought it was worth sharing
If anyone knows the author.. I tried to find it!
Please let me know, and I will post the credit..

When you thought I wasn’t looking, I saw you hang my
first painting on the refrigerator, and I
immediately wanted to paint another one.

When you thought I wasn’t looking, I saw you feed a
stray cat, and I learned that it was good to be kind
to animals.

When you thought I wasn’t looking, I saw you make my
favorite cake for me and ! I learned that the little
things can be the special things in life.

When you thought I wasn’t looking, I heard you say a
prayer, and I knew there is a God I could always
talk to and I learned to trust in God.

When you thought I wasn’t looking, I saw you make a
meal and take it to a friend who was sick, and I
learned that we all have to help
take care of each other.

When you thought I wasn’t looking, I saw you give of
your time and money to help people who had nothing
and I learned that those who have something should
give to those who don’t.

When you thought I wasn’t looking, I saw you take
care of our house and everyone in it and I! learned
we have to take care of what we are given.

When you thought I wasn’t looking, I saw how you
handled your responsibilities, even when you didn’t
feel good, and I learned that I would have to be
responsible when I grow up.

When you thought I wasn’t looking, I saw tears come
from your eyes and I learned that sometimes things
hurt, but it’s all right to cry.

When you thought I wasn’t looking, I saw that you
cared and I wanted to be everything that I could be.

When you thought I wasn’t looking, I learned most of
life’s lessons that I need to know to be a good and
productive person when I grow up.

When you thought I wasn’t looking, I looked at you
and wanted to say, “Thanks for all the things I saw
when you thought I wasn’t looking.”

Getting old is a part of life, not exactly unforeseen..but easy enough to overlook.. I guess.
Especially if your parent is smart and bright and pretty damn assertive, until suddenly
they aren’t, which I guess can happen overnight, cause it seems to have.
She isn’t sick, she is vague.. a medical person I spoke to..
said her brain has become lazy.. overnight I asked.. she hedged, I asked again,
is this like maybe a stroke.. or something.. she
seized on the something real quick and suggested that I have mom evaluated.
Ha.
Mom may be one of the 3 or 4 people who don’t know what a blog is, but Doctors come to her.
Honest, her Doc has been making housecalls for about 2 yrs.
He was supposed to see her last week, and had a emergency..
And now.. doesn’t want to ..
I don’t blame him, but damned if I know how to convince the queen mama she is gonna have to adjust..
because talking to her today is making me crazier than my usual crazy.
well for instance, catching a head shy mule on a 2000 acre pasture seems more realistic than convincing her she needs to go see the doc.
Bless both their hearts.